Anis Mojgani

“There’s something I love about creating an environment that pushes my brain to think differently, to make it so that it has to think creatively about what surrounds it. This aspect of creation, deconstruction, reconstruction, deconstruction, reconstruction, repeat, helps enable and perpetuate this for me. And what I like about not just putting a song on repeat but having to click it back to the start every time it finishes is that it kind of contributes to the above. It doesn’t lull me down the river, it makes me get back out at the same place downstream, head back to where I jumped in and repeat, mirroring the repetition of the re-/de-/reconstruction aspect of my process.

And oddly enough I think that it also helps with bringing myself closer to the truth of the things inside of me I’m trying to understand or get out of my dark and into my light. That it’s a process of trimming off as much fat as possible, or rather getting it boiled down to the most of its essence. Which enables the work (I hope) to really connect with my self, while also being able to walk around in a shape very far removed from my life, thus becoming more connective with other (I hope more). The music I listen to assists with this. As if that which is in me is naked, is more than naked, is naked of skin and body, and is only vaguely of color. And tries on different songs to see what is fitting the shape of its shadow, and when it finds one that fits right, or well enough, it tries it on, walks around in it, learns what it means to have bones and eyelids. And the shape and story of the song works its way into whatever it is I’m writing and becomes something that I would not have necessarily been able to explore or discover just on my own.”

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See You Soon (Live In Sydney) – Coldplay

You know those moments? The ones where you’re laying in the bath tub late at night with a song playing in the background and out of nowhere comes a memory. When times were “good” or where you considered yourself happy. Those moments growing up with your friends when you were figuring out what and who you were. Not even caring where you were going because you were so caught up in the discovery of yourself and the relationships with everyone that you thought was your whole world at the time. Those moments when you’re walking around your hometown on a snowy afternoon and find yourself resting your head on the shoulder of your best friend. That song starts making more sense. You look back on these moments and remember them as “back then” or “the good days” when in reality those days are probably happening right in front of you and you don’t realize it. And in the next 5 or 10 years you will find yourself taking a hot bath with a song playing in the background and you’ll think of these times. The ones you are living right now.

I know it may seem cliché or whatever, but it takes some willpower to realize these moments as they are happening. They’re escaping us and we’re too busy looking back to understand the moments that are right in front of us, happening every day and still will be happening. I am grateful for them and I am grateful for being able to realize this.

Here’s to those moments.